slow and steady

yesterday, we did most of our waiting in the ICU waiting room.
Today, I am sitting in mom's room watching her sleep.
As long as she doesn't try to talk to much I can stay in here as long as I want during the day.
They took her off the vent this am and she is just on a c-pap machine for help now.
Her x-rays were worse today than they were yesterday. That sucks. We both cried.
She said she just wanted me to be near her. Love her. She said she was sorry she didn't know that she was really sick and put us through this. I love her. She laughed when we told her she was being feisty and trying to pull out her tubes and such. I really do love her. She got frustrated because she couldn't hear the music on CMT over her machines. Oh how I love her.
I knew that I loved her, I mean she is my mom. I knew she was one of my best friends and I could tell her anything. I am not ready for her to go home. I may sometimes sound like I don't want to take care of her, but it brings my life such joy, that the thought of losing that special time with her cuts me deep. i want her to be healthy and laugh and even if I have to push her in that wheel chair, I want her to enjoy life with my family.
the nurse is in here, giving more meds. I am amazed by the staff here at Freeman. they are all so great to deal with. even when they are so swamped. I mean, I see what they have to do just for mom and I know the whole ICU is full of patients who need even more than she does. What an amazing profession.
Mom told me today, under no circumstnaces am I to cancel my surgery. haha, I told them she would be mad at me if I did, good thing I didn't listen to them, huh???
her blood sugar is high and they are going to get some more blood and do mouth hygiene and give her some insulin before rolling her to her back.
we forget the simple things like rolling to your back....she can't even do that right now.
God, I am asking for you to hear my prayer and restore my mom's health. not perfect, but so she can roll to her back on her own. so a machine doesn't have to breathe for her. Lord, thank you for letting the people you call to work on others in life threatening situations be obedient. Amen
I have had lots of fun reading up on some new blogs and such while in here....funny what you do to occupy your mind in the waiting room....