Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Our fingerprints don't fade from the lives that we touch-author unknown.

Friday, May 14, 2010

fun giveaway...

you have to go over to Life as a CEO and check out the giveaway!!!

very cute kids gear :o)

Sunday, May 9, 2010

What a great Mothers Day!!

Saturday, May 8, 2010

A Mother's Declarations
What I Can and Cannot Do for You.

I gave you life, but cannot live it for you.
I can teach you things, but I cannot make you learn.
I can give you directions, but I cannot be there to lead you.
I can allow you freedom, but I cannot account for it.
I can take you to church, but I cannot make you believe.
I can teach you right from wrong, but I cannot always decide for you.
I can buy you beautiful clothes, but I cannot make you beautiful inside.

I can offer you advice, but I cannot accept it for you.
I can give you love, but I cannot force it upon you.
I can teach you to share, but I cannot make you unselfish.
I can teach you respect, but I cannot force you to show honor.
I can advise you about friends, but I cannot choose them for you.
I can advise you about sex, but I cannot keep you pure.
I can tell you the facts of life, but I cannot build your reputation.
I can tell you about drink, but I cannot say 'no' for you.

I can warn you about drugs, but I cannot prevent you from using them.
I can tell you about lofty goals, but I cannot achieve them for you.
I can teach you about kindness, but I cannot force you to be gracious.
I can warn you about sins, but I cannot make you moral.
I can love you as a child, but I cannot place you in God's family.
I can pray for you, but I cannot make you walk with God.
I can teach you about Jesus, but I cannot make Jesus your Lord.
I can tell you how to live, but I cannot give you eternal life.

Written by Anne Geddes

Friday, May 7, 2010

Round 2

So, last Thursday, I woke up with a lot of pain in my lower left back.
Dealt with it all day.
Thursday night, I was hurting so very badly, I was sitting at the edge of the bed sobbing.
We tried laying on my side(which still hurt due to my surgery), a heating pad, went back up on pain meds. Nothing helped. Friday was worse. I could barely move. I should have called my Dr office, but I didn't. By 6PM, I was just sobbing. Daniel had taken the kids to the school carnival. I text a friend who is a Dr, just to get her opinion. She said, you just had surgery, you need to call the Dr who did your surgery right away. So, I called the hospital(that is how it works to get the on call Dr) and talked to the on call. She was very concerned and told me to go straight to the ER. So, I called Daniel and he handed all 5 kids off to a very good friend(Thank you J)and came home where I had since gotten dressed-as in not my pj's. We went straight in. The Dr had called, it still took forever because there had been a few ambulances in just before we got there. They took me back and did a urine test and cultures since I had been diagnosed with a bladder infection on Monday. Gone. So, they started an IV, gave me Morphine and sent me for a CT scan. They were thinking I might have a kidney stone. So, they come back and tell me, no, you don't have a kidney stone, but it looks as if you have a very large cyst on the lone left ovary. They took me for a pelvic ultrasound, but gave me more Morphine before going...good thing, I couldn't have taken the pressure of the test if they hadn't. They come back in, Dr says they are admitting me and yes, I have an extremely large cyst and they will decide in the am when my regular Dr comes in if they want to do surgery. Up the Morphine! Took them a while to get me into a room, but they did and I got shots in my IV of Morphine every hour. So, my Dr came in and we were trying to avoid surgery because, well, I had just had major surgery. So, we were trying pain control. All day I got Morphine every hour. I was loopy. She came back in the am and we decided together to try to go to pills and see how I did. If the pain went back up, I would have surgery in the afternoon. Well, the pain got so bad within the hour, I called the nurse and she came in and reminded me I would be going in for surgery if she gave me the Morphine. I understood. I could NOT take the pain any longer. So, the scheduled me to go in at 1Pm and have the cyst removed.

DR tried to go in and do it by laproscope but were unable to get through the scar tissue. Well, when they got in, it was not good. The scar tissue and adhesion's were so bad. My Dr called in another Gyno and a general surgeon! The ovary was the size of an orange. um, crazy! BUT, part of the ovary was attached to the ureter, so they had to leave a 'reminent' of the ovary(they don't know if it will be enough to provide hormones). The general surgeon did repair and reconstruction on my bowels. They checked everything before being done and closing me up. The Dr told Daniel that it would be life threatening if they went in again. well, that is not scary at all.....wrong!

So, I asked for ice chips and I couldn't have them(because of the work on the bowels) I remember the elevator ride was bumpy. I remember getting into my bed in the room from the operating bed. I had a Morphine pump until I got out on Tuesday-every 15 minutes I got a dose of good pain meds. I got up and walked Monday mid morning. It hurt like the dickens! We had a little problem with my bladder not wanting to wake up after they took the catheter out! That was a bit nerve wracking. But, I walked several time, ate my liquid diet and then tried to sleep. Sleep is really hard to come by in the hospital! Visited with all my friends who came by. Text with the ones who didn't. Watched a bit of TV. Monday night the kids came up with Daniel to visit. That was hard. They are just ready for me to be back to my normal too. Tuesday morning, Dr came in and told me I was doing everything she wanted and that I would be going home!!!

Came home, have slept a ton, prayed a ton, watched a ton of tv and played on the computer. Went in today and got the staples removed from my incision. That was a bit painful, but it had to be done. I have one spot she wants me to watch to be sure that it doesn't get infected. I will go back June 3rd to be fully released. Until then, no driving, cleaning or such.

I am ready to get back to my life. I admit, I was looking forward to the break, but, I didn't intend for it to go on for almost 2 months by the time it was done. Daniel has stepped up and been wonderful in taking care of everything for me. Baseball season is in full swing, so it is really busy. Our friends and church family has stepped up and helped us out with meals, laundry, childcare for Piper, taking me to the Dr so Daniel won't have to miss work and just spending time with us. I have had lunch on my bed with several great friends and it means the world to me. I love all the cards I have gotten in the mail as well!

I will be a healthier, better mom/wife/friend when all of this is said and done. I will regain strength day by day and I will one day-not soon-look back and know that God was teaching me many things through this time.

Still have thoughts to share, but, I am tired now. Maybe over the weekend.