Missing-or not.

I think I may have gone missing!!! 

Nope, just crazy busy life and forgetfulness. LoL

I work full time now at a great fabric store as the manager. I LOVE my job. 

Kids ha a good year in school minus the chaos from the flood. 

Thinking this weekend about doing some perking up of the house. We have been here since September and I have not done so much decorating. Have a lot of great ideas~just need to implement them!! 

Now that I have the app, maybe I can do this thing better?

to do lists...

I was going to do so well with this blog this year. 


I think about it all the time.


I just don't get over here and do it. 


I am making changes-not big, I'm Moving changes, just changes in the way I think, do things and such. 


I need to embrace where I am in life. I have learned to love the people I am meeting here, but I still say I like the city life. I don't miss it too much-I miss driving thru Starbucks on occasion with my hubby, I miss my mom and my daughter and my new grandbaby and my sisters. I miss our old church/church family. But, I have finally gotten so that I see people drive down the road and I know them!! I don't know when that happened, but it did-I used to think in my mind, oh, there goes so and so, nope, they are in Joplin, I am in Picayune...


I will be 40 on Wednesday. I am not bothered by the number at all, I embrace it! I just became a Mambo to little Lexi-who is beautiful, I have 5 kids I adore and a husband who knocks my socks off even when I want to fight with him!! 


I just know I have been very depressed and in a bad state of mind for some time now. I have felt very negative and I don't want to be that person. I want my children to have memories of mommy being happy and home being safe and where they learn about God as much as when going to church. I want to be more involved. I mean, I cook and clean and get groceries, I take them to/from school, to ballet/baseball, I go to all events at school...but I want them to learn at home from me--to love, to laugh, to cook, to clean, to forgive, to cry, to dance...TO LIVE . Like last night, Gabi was so proud to cook the bacon(it was microwave bacon-hey, when you have a late ball game, breakfast is quick!)but I almost shooed her out of the kitchen because I was just trying to get done...she loves to be in there with me, so I am making a point to do that with her. 


I have been searching for easy recipes on Pinterest that I can make with them over the summer, (as well as fun crafts for decorating their rooms-CHEAP, but fun!!)I want to start making some sweet treats for them as well-I can't keep buying expensive snack cakes and such that don't last even a day!! SO...that is on my to do list...


We are on a limited budget since I stay at home and that is ok. I  don't mind our home, but I want to be proud to have people over and today, that is NOT the case. By next Saturday, it will be closer..we are having a party to celebrate my birthday and I am excited! Yes, we live in a double wide trailer, but I am not ashamed of that. What I am ashamed of it that I am not a great house keeper since moving here. I had a lot of stuff hidden in closets in Joplin. I don't have those closets here...so, there are a lot of things sitting around that I need to take care of. It wouldn't take long, I just need to do it. So, I am making a list and working on it everyday this week. I want the summer to be fun and not blah because we can't enjoy our surroundings!! I have the organizational skills to do this-heck, I have a trailer sitting next door to put all my craft things in!! that would help :O)  


This is my reality. My mind is all over the place. I LOVE my family with my whole heart..I just want them to see Jesus in me and what I do.


I know this is ALL OVER the place...but I was thinking and typing...SO, pray for me if you think of it....I could sure use it!

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I keep these plates mixed in with my others -they were my Momma's and I love when I pull them out!!!

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sliding into fun at Friendship Park!!

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little pranksters ..this is what happens if they get my phone!! (it is legs, I promise -it was also my DAUGHTER who did it!!!) lol

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she does her own hair every single day!!!

oh yeah

every kids dream!! I am almost 40 and couldn't quit giggling!!