Tuesdays are not my favorite..

ballet is on Tuesdays.
it is crazy.
Piper's class,
then Gabi's.
almost 3 hours of crazy...

I had missed several weeks due to surgery,
the girls-all of them, not just mine-were very excited to show me how much they had improved.
they even waited on me to get done talking to show me the routine!
they RAWKED it out...
I can't wait to see them all at recital, dressed up and dancing.
it will make all the crazy Tuesdays worth it!

my new meds are gross...
like, I have to hurry and take them so I can't taste the nasty taste that will be left in my mouth if it takes too long.
I did hang some clothes up today, so I tried to help-even though I wasn't really supposed to be doing it!

I had left of Jim Bob's from yesterdays lunch out with Stacey/Hal/Daniel for lunch today...
it was just as good as yesterday.

Piper stayed home with me for the first time today since surgery. That was tough. She just doesn't get why I can't do much since I am home. We are going to try one more day and see how it goes...if it still isn't working, she may have to go back to Nana's on Thursday, but, we shall see.

I started reading a Kristen Billerbeck book-Trophey Wife's Club....so far it seems good...we shall see.

the kids got spring pictures back...not the best ever, but I will get one sheet of each and send the rest back.

Speaking of school...I can't believe it is almost over for the year! I am ready for summer...pool, lazy days, just enjoying my kids.

did I mention I lost another 8 pounds? yep, since surgery. makes me happy and almost 40 pounds down...yeah!!!

Piper turned 5 on Sunday. I can't even believe it. She is so little and my baby. She is smart as can be and lights up whatever room she is in. She loves to have fun and laugh. We celebrated by going to Garfield's for lunch, then we took her to Target to shop for shoes-well, flip flops. She found one pair there, so we moved on to Payless and she found two more...she was super happy and the kids asked if we can always just let them pick out the birthday gift~haha. She could go to school in the fall, but, we are not sure if we are going to send her yet. Just wait and see.

ok, so this is really random and full of nothing interesting. sorry. blame it on the medicines.

3 week check up

didn't really go as expected...
but, par for the course.

I have a bladder infection.
I have a hematoma that is infected.
I am in meno pause....
you know you envy me!!!

so, I came home with 3 more prescriptions!
No driving, cleaning, etc for another 3 weeks...
As much as I was excited for a break, I am bored...

But, I have books to read
movies to watch,
bows to make,
internet to play on....
friends who care and come visit or take me places...

just a long day....

recovery

this recovery thing seems to really be taking its toll out on me.
I can't drive.
I can't cook.
I can't clean.
I can't do much of anything.
I did manage to fold a small load of wash that Daniel had set on the love seat....
but by the time I was done, I was so stinking tired.
I sat and played Animal Crossing on the Wii, watched a couple shows, read....
now I am back in bed FREEZING due to my fever.
not a high one, just low enough that I don't have to call in.
all I really want is to feel better.
I KNOW it is a 6-8 week recovery fully.
I am not missing cleaning.
just being active.
I don't remember the last time I sat still this many days....um, never....
I have managed to go all day without taking a pain pill....
starting to hurt a tad, but I will wait to take them now until bedtime....
I plan on going to Logan's double header baseball game Wed night, if I feel ok....
Gabi was a bit whiny after school, Daniel just took her to pick up Piper and he text me a few minutes after leaving and said she was sleeping...oh yeah, forgot she went to bed late....
he went to pick up pizza....he needed a break poor guy.
he has been super through all of this....
I know it is hard for him to work all day AND then take care of all my chores(ya know the ones I do during the day)on top of cooking, getting kids to bath and everything else.
well, time to go rest a bit more.......

Prom and Fevers

Prom was last night!! Izzy had a great time and I was happy to see her so happy.....





Today, Gabi learned to ride a bike....



my kids are growing up....

Daniel has worked very hard this weekend, making dinners, cleaning, shopping for undergarments for the prom for his teenage daughter, taking care of me and the 5 kids.....

the boys just hung out and were boys and Piper was cute as could be playing and spending her last Sunday being 4....

Today, I started running a fever again. I really just want to feel better. I want to have an inspirational post, but none are coming. I know that when all is said and done, I will feel better and have a better life, but right now, I am just tired. Tired of not feeling well, tired of life passing by my bedroom door. just tired.
I will call the dr in the am and see what they want to do.....but until then, I think I will sleep and rest and just be.

raw emotions

wow, they are all over the place.
I have cried,
I have screamed,
I have sighed,
I have whined,
I have smiled,
I have just been.

this past week has been really hard.
being on meds that make me sleepy makes me irritable,
but if I don't take them, I am in pain.
I take them and I feel a tad woozy...
so, no happy medium here...

I cough and feel like I am busting a gut-literally.
it is sore, but I hold that pillow tight over my belly and cough for all I am worth..

I can't wait to shave my legs...
I mean it is spring.....
I want to wear my cute capri's, but i can't button them on my swollen belly yet....
I hope by next week, I can stop wearing my yoga/exercise pants all day.
not that I will be going anywhere that I need to dress nice, I mean the Dr. gets it.....
who by the way was so nice during this whole ordeal.
will need to bake some brownies and cookies for the office and take them in...
after I am able to stand for more than a few minutes at a time.

I see sitting here watching my family keep living life,
where we need changes,
what is working,
what is not.
We are by no means perfect.
we yell, scream, kids are mean to each other and ignore parents,
but one thing I know for sure...
all 5 of our kids know for a fact that we both love them with every breath we take.

I can't wait for the girls recital...
to cheer for the boys from deep in my belly at ball games....
to send Izzy off to her first prom Saturday evening....
memories in the making, even in the midst of our craziness....

hysterectomy

I had it on Tuesday.
it was full abdominal.
I came home on Friday.
I am in lots of pain.
thinking I may have strep on top of it...

dr said it was one of the toughest cases she had seen
like digging through concrete
lots of scar tissue
lots of retraction
my right ovary that was taken at 19 years old, was partially there???
strange
uterus was adhered to my abdomen wall-again(happened when preg with Gabi)
soooo, she said to be prepared to have a bit longer recovery.
poop

missed both boys baseball tourneys this weekend.
lots going on this week, but I don't get to be involved.
was told to stay in bed.
ugh