heartache

i am broken and hurting. I have not enough words. i can't express what I really want to right now.

satan has attacked. he hit me head on.

Please pray that I will be able to rest in God.
Pray for healing.
Restoration.
rest.
a time of growth
I will make it through this, it may take a while, but i know deep in my heart that God will be with me every step of the way. It wont' be easy.
Please respect my desire to not discuss what is hurting.
You are all my friends and I love you deeply, but I am going to be obedient to God and His will for this situation.
Pray.
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

caves and such

Went to Fantastic Cavers with Dawson's class today and it was a lot of fun. We went in the cave and got to see so many cool formations. Dawson held my hand the entire time-I will cherish that since I know the day may come when he will no longer do that in front of all his friends. There were a few scary moments-our school bus driver got stuck in a part where you walk back and you have to get real low. He used to be paralized(we later found out) and had a hard time getting down that low. i was really getting nervous that he was going to knock himself out because he was having a hard time getting low enough. I had to ask a dad in the group to help me get him out, it was really a team effort.
I have not done near what I planned with the blog the past month and a half. I am trying. it is just really hard to find time where I don't feel guilty for doing it. Working on that as well....

Mom is about the same, hurting and such. I love her so much and days like today when she just cries are really hard. There is nothing I can do to help her. Pray.

This weekend we have Elevate and I still have to find sitters for the kids...ugh.

In April, I am going on my annual retreat with a couple of friends and this year I am taking Sammy with me...theme is I am a Princess-My Father is the King of Kings. I think it will be a lot of fun...

well, kids want dinner, so I better get the french toast made!!

another one(or two) bites the dust

my sick girls. I feel so very bad for them. They both have the flu! I had big hopes that it was just a good old cold. no such luck.
Mom had her heart cath yesterday and did great. No heart issues, so back to square one.
I just wanted to get a quick post here, I am not doing so hot on updating on a regular basis.
The boys got haircuts this afternoon...they look great.
I am ready for summer.